Well, first thing is first hello everyone!! ^_^
I know it's been awhile and it's been an even longer time since I posted to Rainbowfic (though I'm writing more things just haven't been posting everything yet and I fell back into fanfiction along with trying to do two serial fictions, so yeah still busy writing wise!) I miss posting there though so I'm going to see when I can get back into that because Sam and Ed have been poking me like crazy, It's like "Alright boys I hear you!" Geez, cuties am I right?
I'll start this with 2015 could have been much better. While it wasn't as bad as 2010-2013 it still could have been better. I still miss my grandpa very much (he passed away in June) then having to deal with the same thing that happened with my dad all over again then my depression and anxiety going up with the following year along with my stress of graduating while trying to find a job that I can apply to it's been all augh!
However, it hasn't been all too bad. I found out that many of my worries about my friends not liking me was all in my head. We talked about it and now I feel so much better knowing that it was only my anxiety talking again. Then with my fanfiction I started posting more and I've been getting requests! Even requests to do collabs so that's pretty cool ^^ Then I'm graduating soon and looking into more things to do when I go to grad school. I still want to be an archivist, but now I'm looking into doing some work with analysis with books. Since I'm taking a medieval course (I get to read Lord of the Rings and play Skyrim for school how cool is that!) I'm noticing that many tropes and themes are just older themes changed to fit the ideas of the society at the time with residual effects from past generations. Like how the nice guy trope is very similar to the knight who has finished their quest for the princess and expects their body to be the reward which was something that hasn't really gone away only has a new name for it. It's amazing! I'm actually enjoying things again which makes me happy because now I know the depression I was in for 2010-14 is finally clearing up. I am so happy to be into doing things again.
I'm happy and terrified that I'm going to be graduating soon. While I'm happy to be graduating, I'm terrified since I don't have a job and many people in my family think that you can just waltz in some place and get a job when it's like no. It makes it even harder since I still can't drive alone yet and the women in my family keep trying to get me to either a) dress myself up so an older man can hire me (blegh) or b) get married to an older guy so he can buy me everything (double blegh) as you can see I'm not happy with either option. So while I'll be job searching I'm going to be working hard to get paid on Jukepop then editing things on the side because hell no I will never do those options ever.
So many sad deaths happened in the beginning of 2016. So many wonderful talents lost from the world, though they are still entertaining us in this world and I hope they are entertaining in the next.
Overall I'm doing much better than I was before and I'm working hard to make sure that I can have myself together at least.
I still want to see what's in store for me so let's hope for a good 2016!
How is everyone? ^^
When I went to get my license I had to go through shit for 7 years I got it when I turned 23 that year. Now she's going on about getting some man to carry me around instead when I worked my butt off getting the damn thing. So yeah I asked if I shouldn't have gotten it or not. Then she gets mad well I don't care. How do you expect me to be when you keep telling me to find a man to basically be my babysitter?
So yeah I find it shitty and unfair that I had to go through so much, but my brothers don't. She encourages them to get their license while she did nothing, but bitch at me and told me to give up at one point. So yeah I'm asking why there's a difference. I wish she would just tell me she wanted me to be a boy so we can move the hell on with our lives.
I'll never understand why she always get so angry about this. She complains about having to drives us around, but gets mad when we want to do it.
Ugh. Can't wait, until I move out. It will be like watching a star deflate.
( Round up of August... )
I have some plans for September too!
-Start updating my serial New Home again. (It's right here if anyone is interested)
-Work on some fics on my hard drive (both original and fanfic)
-Look into getting a Patreon (if I got one would that interest anyone?)
-Setting up an editing post soon. (It will help me get some money while I look for a job)
-Start planning a novel that I will self publish (SWL I really like the suggestion you gave me!)
-Try to bring some more life back here. Hopefully XD
I’m not going to hold myself to these goals too hard, but I am going to try and keep them.
Do you have any goals for September? I’d love to hear them. ^^
Yet, I have to listen to them and if I don't then there's something wrong with me or I get snapped at or called such I'm an awful person because of it.
Then they wonder why I've stopped talking to them and have focused on trying to get out for grad school. It might be scary, but I think I can do it.
I just get tired of expecting to listen to others when no one wants to listen to me.
Except my grandma and uncles, they're one of the few reasons I haven't done anything drastic. :/
( Learn more about me... )
Writing wise I'm working on a bunch of original stuff including a Victorian romance story for this contest on Jukepop that's currently eating my brain because I'm always on the paranormal side of romance, but it's been pretty fun. I have Marvel ideas and joined the Marvel Bang, trying to keep up with my blog, and I still need to get everything set up. *sighs* But I am trying to make it so yeah!
Hope everything is well with you guys ^_^
I'll explain in time, but I would really appreciate it.
Though a few notes: Sammy, you know that Ed is on your side. Ed, you know that you have to let people know how you feel instead of trying to hide it among a bunch of ramblings. I love you two, but I swear. ><
I DID IT THOUGH!!
Hey! Hey! Look what I've been writing:
Sam rubbed the back of his neck while Ed bounced on the heels. He waited for Ed to talk, but Ed looked around at the faeries flying around and didn’t look over at him. It was rare to see Ed so quiet, then again Sam felt talkative for once. Sam stepped closer to Ed who looked up at him with a sheepish smile. He cleared his throat as he stopped bouncing and placed his hands in his pockets.
It's happening! I've taken thirty minutes to write a little bit each day and it's working very well for me. So yeah expect to see these two acting all shy and cute with each other. :D
So, until I find a job with benefits I'm doing some freelancing, but I have to get my butt in gear. I do wish I could work someone else from home though. My home is still a source of stress so I would love to leave for a while. My brothers are great. Let's not talk about my mom...
I've been on tumblr too and I'm just amazed at how people can find the time to argue. I barely have enough time to do the things that I do, so I don't know how they can do it.
I'm going to be 26 in 3 months OMG ><
The only request I've made to my family when I graduate is to take me to the casino so I can have two drinks and some bread that's it really. That's all I want and I'm going to make it happen.
Let's see besides school I'm doing good. ^^
Oh and I'm sorry about slacking about the RP. I wanted to add more people too. ><
That's all for now!
Sorry I haven't been on here a lot I've gotten into the world of RPing and since I RP on DW I'm on here, but not on this journal. I watch and read everything though not on my journal. So a couple of things have happened this year even though I don't really remember alot here is a summary of the year!
-I got off my butt and finally RP again after so long and I'm having so much fun!
-My couple finally happened in Naruto. Quick history I've followed the series since the beginning and I've shipped this couple since the beginning and I never thought it would happen and it did! I'm so happy I'm through the moon!
-I lost my writing confidence for a while, but I finally found it. It's one of the reasons I haven't posted anything in a while.
-I worked through my nerves and published a story on this site called JukePop Serials. I asked my uncle for help and found out that my family is supported and all I had to do was tell them. The story is here and it's called New Home it's a paranormal romance story set in my hometown of Detroit. My characters from Pleasant Surprise will be there because I felt it was easier to use Detroit and Michigan as the landscape for an urban fantasy story. I guess it would be urban fantasy. Well check it out! If you'd like :)
-GOT MY LICENSE HELL YES!!
-Changed my major and felt better that I made a decision based on my mental health and it turned out alright.
-Flirted for a while and while it didn't work out in the end I'm happy that I was able to figure out what I want in a person.
Alright those are some good things of course, there's always bad things too.
-Things are still stagnant at home.
-Still seen as a 15 year old instead of 25
-Had to change majors after being in education for over four years, so annoying, but helpful
-Was promised that I would receive help getting a car and it never happened.
-Almost dropped out of school like for real
-Almost fell back into my depression and stopped writing for a while
-Almost made a bad decision, but stopped myself from doing it
So all in all 2014 wasn't that bad. I do have some goals for the future though!
-Write more in all my worlds
-More Sam and Ed (I've missed my boys)
-Make either Tsukino/Kazu or Helen/Nate a serial and flesh out their main story a bit more
-Start doing prompt calls. If I started would anyone be interested in that?
-Look for a summer job because I need one.
-Try to be a better friend online and RL
-Visit bestie in St. Louis
-Start dating (I finally think I'm cute and interesting enough)
-Take better care of myself.
Woo that was long, but for anyone that kept up I'm glad you did! Alright I'll try to post on here more when I'm not in a sea of RP tags lol.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! I hope this year is awesome for you because you deserve it!
Send help! Can't breathe!
...People are great sometimes aren't they?
I had the weirdest weekend where I felt numb and I hadn't felt like that in a long time. So tell me something happy that happened to you or something happy you want to happen for one of my characters! I think that would help because you know my depression is now gone because of this realization.
I just keep loving people...